In November of 2012 I was a 20 year old living in an itsy bitsy apartment with my boyfriend of 3 years. My life was simple and slightly ordinary. My life was set up according to plan because I'm that type of person. I was working a part time job and going to school to get my degree in Nursing. I had three cats and a hunger for creating lovely things involving art and food. When I hit 20, like most of you I was at a point in my life where I had a drive for just about anything and I was growing and changing at a rapid pace.
A dim, chilly November morning I woke up with a strange suspicion. My body was telling me something and so was the stick laced with a plus sign before my eyes. I broke out into tears. Tears of fear, mostly. The following two weeks I was still in shell shock, because I honestly can't begin to recall those beginning weeks. I do remember the first time I heard the thumping of a miniature heartbeat against my own. That day changed my life, and every day after that changed my life. I was 20 years old and pregnant.
I was never certain I wanted children before. There wasn't a hidden secretive reason as to why. I just had different plans and I never could picture myself in a mother's shoes. Instead I had so many fears of letting the baby down, not being good enough, and also not being mature enough at this age to sacrifice my life for a soul human being. It was a mountain that I never thought I would climb. And then July 5th I conquered the mountain of worries and fears that I never thought were possible to reach.
Lola was born and our lives changed rapidly. I've learned more about life in the last 10 months than I have in 21 years. I learned that to be good parents we must form a team together and support each other through the whole process. I've learend that the smallest things in life can be the biggest deal if you just open your eyes. I've learned that deep breathes every once in a whole can solve most problems. I've learned that when you bring a life into this world you begin to understand the importance of every single day and to cherish every second.
So I'm turning 22 this month and some things have changed, but most have stayed the same. We live in a slghtly bigger apartment with a fairytale nursery included. We've celebrated 4 years of love together and are still going stronger than ever. My life is a mixture of simplicity and chaos and not the slightest bit ordinary. I work 2 days a week, and the rest of my days are spent being a stay at home mom, which I surprisngly have fell in love with over the past few months. My cats are Lola's siblings and my hunger for art has increased.
It's funny because althought Lola is the focal point of my life now, I still have the same drive I did as a 20 year old. The only difference is the fact that I want to experience it all with her now and let life carry us down every single road of discovery.
So although life can throw a few curve balls your way, find the good in it all. The world never works according to the master plan that's formulating in your head. The Keep Good Going project zooms in on life and the lessons and challenges that push you through to the finish line. It helps you find the good in the scary situations that seem impossible to conquer.
Learn more about how New York Life can help you and your family Keep Good Going and Watch "The Happiest Daughter video," above to get insight on what keeping good going means to her. The video will make you smile and hopefully inspire you to keep the good going in your life and leave the negative behind.
New York Life is also celebrating the irreplaceable amounts of good that seem to wisp there way into our lives around the holidays. This Sunday is Mother's Day, New York Life hopes you will be Celebrating Good to all the Mothers or Mother figures in your life. One of the things I will be cherishing my mom for this Sunday is being the best role model I could have ever asked for. She has taught me the ins and outs of Motherhood and was there when I told myself I couldn't do it. Being a young mom I think it's so important to keep your own mother as close as possible and that's exactly what she did she stayed close by my side through it all. I know that I am the person I am today because of her.
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